About Me

I'm trying my best to not be an envious person ... but it's hard! On my sister-in-law's blog, her About Me reads: "I'm a fun-loving woman, wife, mom to a no-fear toddler, and a student of cultures. I have been serving in Paraguay for five years. I am passionate about God, life, my fam, outdoor activities, nature and pickles." Every time I read this, which is just about every time I read her blog, I get so so envious. I would love to be able to say that I was a fun-loving woman and passionate about life. Instead, my About Me reads: "I am a wife and new mother, trying my best to overcome struggles in my life and doing my best to 'press on to take hold of that for which Christ has taken hold of me'. In the midst of my struggles, I press on."

My husband is very much like his sister. One of my greatest desires is to be able to embrace life like they do in order to share it with him. I have many fears that I'm doing my best to overcome. One of them is complete insecurities about just about everything about me. I'm probably one of the most insecure people I know. While the Lord has brought me strides in this area in my life, I still have a long way to go.

We had a sermon recently at church about accepting who God made us to be. God made us exactly as He would have us and by not accepting who we are, we're in essence saying God didn't do good enough.

For some reason, this is how He created me. While it's still hard for me to accept and I still would much rather be like my husband or sister-in-law, I can't change who I am. Most of the time I want the easy way out. And I see the two of them as being able to live life so much easier than me. But alas, God doesn't always give us the easy way. As I've heard others say, life is about the journey - whether I like it or not.

So Holy Spirit, I need your strength to get me through each day. I need your transforming power to change me into the person I hope to become and more importantly the person You want me to be.